Share on Facebook Share on Twitter Share on Google+ Share on Reddit Share on Pinterest Share on Linkedin Share on Tumblr I still remember the first time I have my baby in my arms. I was extremely happy, tired and afraid but not sad at all. Few weeks things started to change around me. I had to take all the responsibilities both inside and outside the house. I started to hear cruel words from the closest people about myself and about being an unmerciful working mother for sending my son to daycare. I cried and cried and lost a lot of my weight and just keep asking why people cannot be kind? Why they cannot see the pain I have because of them? I have endured a lot of pain for more than 3 years before start thinking to stop it permanently. I just kept telling myself that tomorrow will be better and I did my best to help the people around me to be changed. I endured in order not to deprive my son of people I thought he needs them. Nothing changed and nothing will be ever changed as long as they do not see that they should change. Many people asked me how could you bear all this period? I had something as an analgesic. In my weakness and sadness moments, I go to my baby and start looking at the blessing I have. I said to him “honey, I love you and I need your hug” he replies “I love you too much mommy” and we have a big big big hug that can make you forget the whole world not only the pain you have. I am not saying that you have to keep silent and just satisfy with your unhappy life and let people hurt you. Absolutely NO, but I am trying to tell you that you still have a strong reason to be strong. Your baby is a cure for the pain you feel inside. His kindness will make your heart happy. Just try to hug him and you will be in a completely different world of pureness.